Friday, April 30, 2004

having free block for chem now... miss tok is away doing some uni stuff
and now i am b o r e d
too bored but cannot sleep
sigh shoulda bought some stuff to eat during recess then now can eat
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ytd's trng was well nice
in fact it was super fun
beautiful weather but it rained halfway through and spoilt our mood
and i think heart to heart is gooood
and well tried pitching ytd and deb was ecstatic
although i wasn't but.
should i or not? coach said its up to me but i think i will ask him to decide for me
more like give me advice on what i should do
and i will follow exactly what he says
but? i scared train for pitcher then ruoq pitch then i dont even get to play outfield
that would be suuuch a waste and besides i only have nine months including january 05
let nature run its course

-tobeornottobe-

angela posted this at 13:06 [comment]

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Tuesday, April 27, 2004

todayy stoned in phy chi eng
phy not so much lah was listening alot
then phew recess
match was..i dont want to comment
i'm in no position to comment cos frankly i dont feel the same loss as all the team members do
go there just fill bottles and fill bottles and taunt and cheer
???
interesting fact:
i have only played one full game in my life
thats one for the guiness book of records
i think all my life i have been an underacheiver
well buck up baby, cos the road's just gonna get longer and steeper
so wth am i doing here im gonna turn in now.
os tmr can go full force on phy..

-cosiloveyou, butican'ttakeanymore-

angela posted this at 22:11 [comment]

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Sunday, April 25, 2004

i think i am a sad case
how to socialise if i only can talk to my friends
grrrrrrhhhh i just realised i have a damned jian bao to do
by monday
its sunday
i dont care
i will do it tmr
during one of the crap lessons


angela posted this at 22:43 [comment]

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Saturday, April 24, 2004

actually i thought trng was slack k today
but heh the stroll there was super amusing although someone got pissed and embarrased
hey i was embarrased too ok cos i was with you right
and hm abt 20 pairs of eyes lah not too bad
ohhey haha i can pitch!
when roy went to bat i actually pitched
but of course not full distance lah no way
pitching qt fun lah..but now my right arm is sore
then yay i can bat bat bat
although poppish and straight-to-the-pitcherish but at least i proved to everyone i can hit
or so said depressed diana
ah well. at least coach pointed out i was trying to change my batting
today was a happy day!!!
oh and cos ellen was not there so i was uh, 'playing' third base for most of the time
so soooorrrrry everyone i kept screwing up
ok lah lame excuse but ruoqi is distracting
cos if say first base shouts one i will thro to first base right?
but since roy was shouting one! one! i threw at her lorh
loser right yes i know i know no need to rub it in...
bahhhahah
then later moni dropped me at paya lebar and i boarded the train
OMG GUESS WHO WAS THERE
** and *****
no worries deb i would never never steal *****
not my type anyway plus far too tall fer me
so lax
whats that french term? au revoir or sth.
au revoir

angela posted this at 22:20 [comment]

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Thursday, April 22, 2004

somehow or other i cannot visit my own blog but i can blog at my own blog
cos cannot open blogspot or sth
and i think i should just study harder
seriously i only scored 1.5 marks better in a chi test last yr
cos it was 6 ke and the previous was 11 ke
11 ke mugged alot alot alot
6 ke hardly touched the book
WOW I GOT 1.5 MARKS HIGHER
blast it i shall just sleep now and to wherever with the maths test
ok everyone i promise
i will be an A student when it comes to maths and phy by this year


angela posted this at 21:24 [comment]

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Tuesday, April 20, 2004

if you're my real friend you will know
and my sister is a bitch.
yes she is and dont say i shouldnt have said that.
up till now i haven't figured her out so there
not the point but i really should go sleep so that tmr i dont need to nap in the afternoon
todays trng sucked big time
i didnt get a single nice throw nor a single nice hit
best part was when catching for everyone
cant even catch properly want to be in the team?!?!
cant even bat properly want to be in the team?!?!
cant even throw properly want to be in the team!?!?
wishful thinking
i need to buck up everywhere
need to study real hard from now on and go for every ball
and i waaaant to beeee leffft/riggght fiiield next year
and sth else too!
and hardargarhar resh dont be pissed ok i wont be either
and you bum getting 70's in ur subs is like heaven for me lah
i just want my 70 average
yes i will get it
i must
or else i die

angela posted this at 22:11 [comment]

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if you're my real friend you will know
and my sister is a bitch.
yes she is and dont say i shouldnt have said that.
up till now i haven't figured her out so there
not the point but i really should go sleep so that tmr i dont need to nap in the afternoon
todays trng sucked big time
i didnt get a single nice throw nor a single nice hit
best part was when catching for everyone
cant even catch properly want to be in the team?!?!
cant even bat properly want to be in the team?!?!
cant even throw properly want to be in the team!?!?
wishful thinking
i need to buck up everywhere
need to study real hard from now on and go for every ball
and i waaaant to beeee leffft/riggght fiiield next year
and sth else too!
and hardargarhar resh dont be pissed ok i wont be either
and you bum getting 70's in ur subs is like heaven for me lah
i just want my 70 average

angela posted this at 22:11 [comment]

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Saturday, April 17, 2004

i just want to swim right now
before i become a casualty
maybe next sat? or sheesh i will just wait for the hols to roll by
swim maybe 2k or more
its the only thing other than maths that gives me a sense of acheivement
just swim and swim and you are numb to the world
only thing you think of is how many laps more
and how long you are taking
and yes its true.
i am depressed. because?
of all the nitty gritties and how they just add up
bloody hell i wanted it so much
so so so much
and stop asking me that
it just makes me a hell lot sadder
and more angry that why couldn't i get it and whywhywhywhywhy
only one consolation.
phy test postponed to week 7.
that hardly makes up for anything
my phy teacher cannot teach
chem teacher on 4 week mc and she obviously failed her eng in sch
'particles made up metals'
meaning particles make up matter
bio? lets just say that she hasnt appeared since that one lesson after e week
oh welll isnt it just great now i dont have a bio teacher
i cant access msn
my throws suck
my hiar is so bloody frizzy i hate it so
my studies suck
i didnt get it
i dont understand modulus at all
those two are the biggest, most shitty bitches i have seen in my life.
AH I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER

angela posted this at 21:16 [comment]

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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

eng compre eng summary phy maths hcl 5 items
thats the tests i got next week
mrs leuar has a knack of koping all our free blocks for maths
hmm.. wonder who is tipping her off
really lah she comes in during our free blocks for more maths
like 303 had 2h 40 mins of maths on tues
grrrehsnht
today pohpoh was explaining qns on the board all the way left
writing in red
me and anna [we sit far right] kept raising our hands poh2 kept ignoring us
i mean other ppl who raised their hands got their questions answered
we didnt even get to say what we wantedd
then after bell ring she asked what we want
and i said: mrs teo i have been trying to tell you that we cannot see whats written on the board
she went sorry sorry and drew all over again
this time in blue on the right board
ghonphhek
conscience: MUG CHEM
angela: yes ma'am i'm going off now

angela posted this at 20:36 [comment]

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Monday, April 12, 2004

i should be mugging chem
but it is impossible to because alex is playing condition zero.
again.
and the speakers are turned on full blast and it goes
BANG BANG BANG BANG BANG
terrorists win.
the bomb has been planted
ok lets go
FIRE IN THE HOLE!
in case you dont know its cs
waaah i hate ting xie why must it be graded
why must there be soo many blahdee tests this 2 weeks
ss si han ting xie chem phy maths hcl and i think bio is coming up soon
good luck ppl
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i've been thinking
maybe i should stop thinking too much
especially about negative things
as quoted by our very own oprah winfrey
and wth ellen just told me my blog is on google
but hey i like to think!
esp at night thats why last night i slept arnd 1.30?
even tho i went to bed at 11.50
how on earth do i think so much
ta~

angela posted this at 20:38 [comment]

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Sunday, April 11, 2004

today is resurrection sunday!
so andy and jackie were mcs again
and supposed to count the number of whole eggs in the picture
then i counted 27! and daddy pushed me up to the stage and said 27
the yeah got the correct answer and was forced up stage by dear dad
ahaha they buff one say won a nikia 6610 or sth but in the end it was a scam
but expected lah. i dunno any church that will give away phones and cruises to nowhere
so anyway i now have a $10 coffee bean voucher
which is just as well cos there's a coffee bean on the same level as my church
cos my church is in expo
thoroughly embarrassed !!
and yes the story of Jesus is sooo sad i was crying during the video
thats why if ever i watch passion i will bring a towel.
note towel not tissues
yay parents are gone means freedom for me

condition zero -

angela posted this at 16:02 [comment]

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Saturday, April 10, 2004

i want ___

angela posted this at 00:20 [comment]

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Thursday, April 08, 2004

To The Moon And Back - Savage Garden

She's taking her time making up
the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows from the smile
and the look in their eyes
Everyone's got a theory about the
bitter one
They're saying, "Mamma never loved
her much"
And, "Daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from
human affection"
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right
kind of pilot to come
And she'll say to him
She's saying

[chorus:]

I would fly to the moon & back if
you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we
belong
So would you be my baby?

She can't remember a time when she
felt needed
If love was red then she was colour
blind
All her friends they've been tried for
treason
And crimes that were never defined
She's saying, "Love is like a barren
place,
And reaching out for human faith is
Is like a journey I just don't have a
map for"
So baby's gonna take a dive and
Push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that she's hanging
All her hopes on the stars
What a pleasant dream
Just saying

[chorus ]

(hold on... hold on...)

5 4 3 2 1

Mamma never loved her much
And Daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from
human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right
kind of pilot to come
And she'll say to him
Just saying

[chorus twice ]


really love this song
been listening to it all the time until my discman went lo batt
darren hayes sounds pretty good but daniel jones writes and composes everything
besides, hes alot cuter than d.h :)
click here to see darren
click here to see daniel
click here to see both
ok i'm mad i admit...
anw qt sad when they split up in fact very
hahah i've decided
that i like skinny guys better
not skin and bone kind of skinny but uh. skinny
how else do i describe
and why am i typing this when all my readers are girls?
OH NO DAD HAD BETTER NOT COME HERE -faint
anw kors home gtg do work and btw i spent 40 mins typing this entry
so be thankful
and i think im back to my normal siao self again
but to kelly again: if i dont get upset at times wo bu shi ren

angela posted this at 22:41 [comment]

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Wednesday, April 07, 2004

why do i even care what you think
why is everything affected by what you think
HARH? Why are you so bloody influencial i know i'm biased but who cares?
i know i am pissed now but this is my blog.
you know what? i should go get a proper diary then i wont blog no more
and today dad said sth like did you play
and i said no dad your darling daughter isnt even a reserve.
i dont even have a chance to play ok?
and no mum she is no good at all in my opinion lah
tmr got sports fest feel like developing a fever
i still wish i was and could though... i'd give anything to be a reserve now??
today was super screwed
i didnt bring my inners nor fbts
and i was planning to go for the match in just my jersey
whattaheckmenocaringnomore--

angela posted this at 21:08 [comment]

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Tuesday, April 06, 2004

what is it i want ?
what is it i need ?
*@)w(┘≈i!@*δl•#)l(!@Y☻♣oWE♀u!@!h!♠)*e#!)l@(°!!!p*♥m^@⌠^e*$ö#&@)?



angela posted this at 23:07 [comment]

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it was totally hilarious.
but now, i'm depressed.
too bad you'll have to hear me rant.
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ithinknobodycanreallyknow what'stroublingme. heckidonteven knowmyselfhowcaniexpect anyonelsetoknow?
angelacanyoustopbeingsuchanassholeandbemoredisciplined
whyifittakescrappingsometimes,thenstartcrappingmanitsforyourownbenefit.
justlikelitandhistory.ifounditmindless,completelymindlesstocrapandrepeatyourselfoverandoveragain.
icouldntscoreanA.neveroncedidigetanA.


whatever.


idon'tthinkyou'llknowcos you're ||. n . o . t - m . e .||

angela posted this at 19:21 [comment]

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Monday, April 05, 2004

2 funny things happened today.
one there was this fat slimy lizard that was on the ceiling above the comps
so fine lah just let it be
then it decided to wander into the light
y'know my hse lights are holes in the ceiling then the light bulb is in the hole right
and alex [my lil bro] was next to me watching the lizard and suddenly he yellled
'AAAAH IT DROPPED!! AHHHHHH!'
heh then he screamed, i screamed, we all screamed
cos the lizard fell onto the comp i was using with a great piak!
and hahahaah reneta was here and she was sooo cute
we were literally roflmao
maybe not rofl but definitely lmao
yeah so my bio newsletter was hurriedly saved and closed and the comp shut down
afterwards i was playing warcraft
i tell you little brothers are irritating
usually mine is ok until i start playing warcraft
cos he thinks he's a boy so he oughtta know more war tactics than me right?
wrong.
well gong i did not train 6 gryphons but i still won what!
gerrhh and 6 knights are enough ok.
ok i know just about nobody that reads my blog knows what the heck i'm talking about
but heck. its my blog!
then the dumb boy started playing his violin
only his violin is made of..?
a few ice cream sticks glued together.
mind, he's 9 already.
and hmm this was a pretty crappy post but like i said, heck, its my blog.
burp-- tmr got sch kow wed got 2 maths blocks!
aaaaaaahhhhhhh i will just ______ -fill in the blank with a negative word
oh btw, orchid park, you're going down.

angela posted this at 20:43 [comment]

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yesterday was a nice date
shoot i just dropped my choc onto tthe keyboard!
anw kor came bursting into my room at 2330
and said fang do you know what date it is today?
4th April 2004!!
then i said haha 04/04/04
then he went raving abt how there will be such dates until 2012
yeah yesterday was a niiice date.
the 4th day of the 4th month of the 4th year of the new millenium
040404
so on the night of 04/04/04, the entire chan family crammed into one room
the master of course
hahah that was fun even though we slept super late
we meaning mum dad kor me
cos i slept 3 hours in the afternoon
and kor was busy packing for sispac
or however you spell it
actually quite sad, dont you think?
someone you looove going away for 3 years
only seeing him once a week or worse, once in 2 weeks if he gets confined..
anw, i'm supposed to be doing my bio newsletter now thats due on thurs
AND THIS WEEK ONLY 3 DAYS OF SCHOOL!
now its 2 days left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wahhaa! happiness bliss fantastic hahaha wheee!

angela posted this at 17:35 [comment]

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Saturday, April 03, 2004

why do i always fall sick
i wanted to train today, but cos fell sick in sch so cannot
know what? i suddenly dont know what to type
dont know what to feel
dont know what to do
dont know what to think
dont know what to say
only that im tired
tired of politics
and lets see what you all make of yourselves next year
only one advice: choose wisely, not based on popularity
"no one has seen, no one has heard"
but today only one happy thing happened
i found out sth that made me really really diappointed
yet happy
so near yet so far
yes i will choose to be happy and work harder instead
in both areas
i have decided that i will be zai in softball
zai in studies
and a good girl with a social life
that means very good time management
so what am i doing here?!
i should bathe and sleep now to get well sooner
ok thats what i'll do.
i will make a pact
sign a contract
with me and all who read my blog
I, Angela Chan Yu Huang of Raffles Girls' School, will get at least 70 for all my subjects.
I will also play in every single game in the year 2005. Nobody is going to take my place in right/left field.
And I mean nobody.
no please, not like last year.
lets wait and see.

angela posted this at 15:23 [comment]

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