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Monday, April 25, 2005 i cant sleep. i really really want to play. more than anything. actually i could if i tried hard enough dont think anyone would know the feeling of knowing you are not contributing haha sat was really fun sure every team has its reserves and enjoyable cos whee i played! why does it have to be me and do you believe i was absolutely petrified when i saw that i had to throw home. technically with one extra year of training i should be better although not terribly far, but still. but how come im not??? and afterwards wanted to go home immediately softball really fills my thoughts was halfway out of the school when i called my mum thinking about it just makes me feel like crying and she said she could pick me at 6! and knowing it makes me cry so back to the field i went dunno. some call it mood swings but. being my mother, she did not pick me at 6. i call it despair nor did she pick me at 6.30 every night i cannot sleep because of this. she didnt even pick me la i keep thinking of backstopping, swinging up, fence batting, cheering and what not. but thanks to chris-tin who gave me and deb a lift! drives me nuts just thinking about it got back and the dumb no. 9/10 refused to come!!! bloody hell stop! then today right. on sat. first thing i saw at the breakfast table was a picture of that loony's house. you dont know how proud i was to be able to make that first catch. what house? more like cult building lah please! pop between short and me and i caught it if you havent seen it its on sunday times front page not anything difficult, anyone could've caught that but thats not the point kow. he's been building it since 2002 when we moved in until now can. it just made me so damned proud of myself knowing i contributed, actually contributed. the newpapers only reported 2 years. so everybody, IT WAS 3! and when liping overthrew at 3 i covered and threw home cos runner running home its really super freaky at night and i actually didnt screw up. stupid statues are lighted up thanks to all who said that was a nice throw! :) looks very eerie the feeling of not screwing up the covering and throwing well was great enough and WHAT on earth does he have this huge disco-ball like thing in his house for!?! but knowing that my throw was good enough to get the runner out at home was exhilerating and is he even living in it. thats the stupidest manmade thing ive ever seen. absolutely pure bliss you know? the feeling. if only these feelings came more often. that guy ah.. i really want to be part of the team. to be part of the tears and joy and feelings then went for lunch at sushi tei! i know i should be thankful enough that i made it YUM. but originally i thought i was 10th. now it seems i'm 13th and later!!!! so how. what do i need to do before i can? went to candy empire at millenia walk and src. last day. he didnt even say anything, not a damned thing abt my performance GO THERE IF YOU HAVENT maybe its too much to ask. i dont know. its up to him man. dont go there if you've not got a sweeeeeeet tooth though! and why is it when i get the chance to prove myself, i dont? we spent an equivalent of my week's allowance on chocolates and sweets haha is it bacause i am unable. so i cant is that it? just not good enough? tsssssk. but they are divine why do i freeze out and drop the fucking bat when im up there? reached home at 4 la and really i find that some arent performing as well as they should and i think my parents are the only parents in the world who disallow their child to study. do any of you notice how coach only corrects the swing of the first nine? i didnt want to go for lunch so i could study for eois la and how he goes ''strike out nevermind!'' to the first nine only? go figure. whilst there were occasions where he scolded me, the non first nine, for not proving myself and! they are the only parents in the world who bring up to topic of gfs/bfs EVERY MEAL. when i had the chance to. seriously! bug off! and why did he laugh off her blur base running? its not like we're 30 odd and still not married RIGHT. being a slow runner is one thing. being a blur runner is another. hey mum and dad, I AM FIFTEEN. i think whoever is the latter deserves a scolding.really lah. we can be talking about how wasabi is so hot softball has wasted enough of my time and before we know it, we doscover how wasabi is also related to life partners. 4 years. sweat sun fatigue late nights doing homework aches sprained ankles its amazing. one day i shall time my parents. WHAT THE FUDGE WAS ALL THAT FOR. see how long they take to link osama with future spouses. or something.i dont want to waste my time in jc anyway.yall say i should join. but really? ha i dont think i'll do me any good in the long run next year's first nine will most prob be debruoqreshbelshuxianellenliciaxh and whoever else. and then in j2. gen and chris will come up again. so will yuezhen so ruoqi tell me. there isnt any point in retraining for pitcher, is there? everyone should get subbed out at least once. those who havent cannot understand. there are only two more matches left. theres only three reasons why i would join softball in jc. fit. angela posted this at 02:29 [comment] *** |
 Angela Chan 18 9Dec89 raffles girls' school raffles junior college smu lkcsb gryphons softball ----------------------------- likes swimming, tennis school, human geog lessons reading food sleep ----------------------------- i don't really like studying fakos ----------------------------- Please: Lord please let me grow a better relationship with God ------------------------------ chanyha@gmail.com History 12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004 01/01/2004 - 02/01/2004 02/01/2004 - 03/01/2004 03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004 04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004 05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004 06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004 07/01/2004 - 08/01/2004 08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004 09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004 10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004 11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004 12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005 01/01/2005 - 02/01/2005 02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005 03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005 04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005 05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005 06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005 07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005 08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005 09/01/2005 - 10/01/2005 10/01/2005 - 11/01/2005 11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005 12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006 01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006 02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006 03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006 04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006 05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006 06/01/2006 - 07/01/2006 07/01/2006 - 08/01/2006 08/01/2006 - 09/01/2006 09/01/2006 - 10/01/2006 10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006 11/01/2006 - 12/01/2006 12/01/2006 - 01/01/2007 01/01/2007 - 02/01/2007 02/01/2007 - 03/01/2007 03/01/2007 - 04/01/2007 04/01/2007 - 05/01/2007 05/01/2007 - 06/01/2007 06/01/2007 - 07/01/2007 07/01/2007 - 08/01/2007 08/01/2007 - 09/01/2007 09/01/2007 - 10/01/2007 10/01/2007 - 11/01/2007 11/01/2007 - 12/01/2007 12/01/2007 - 01/01/2008 01/01/2008 - 02/01/2008 02/01/2008 - 03/01/2008 03/01/2008 - 04/01/2008 04/01/2008 - 05/01/2008 05/01/2008 - 06/01/2008 06/01/2008 - 07/01/2008 07/01/2008 - 08/01/2008 08/01/2008 - 09/01/2008 11/01/2008 - 12/01/2008 12/01/2009 - 01/01/2010
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